Is there God?

Psalm 14:1-7 (NIV)

The fool says in his heart, "There is no God."

They are corrupt, their deeds are vile; there is no one who does good.

[2] The Lord looks down from heaven on the sons of men to see if there are any

who understand, any who seek God.

[3] All have turned aside, they have together become corrupt;

there is no one who does good, not even one.

[4] Will evildoers never learn---those who devour my people as men eat bread

and who do not call on the Lord?

[5] There they are, overwhelmed with dread, for God is present in the company of the righteous. [6] You evildoers frustrate the plans of the poor, but the Lord is their refuge.

[7] Oh, that salvation for Israel would come out of Zion!

When the Lord restores the fortunes of his people, let Jacob rejoice and Israel be glad!

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Being pruned by God

~ Sept 13, 6pm

Was pruning one of my fruit tree in the afternoon... cutting off some of the branches that's blocking the walk way.
Suddenly this thought came to me while trimming the tree.
God prune us so that we may bear fruit and also be fruitful... but do you realised how hard it is for the person to prune?
I'm sure God feels the pain when He lay the pruning scissors on us.

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In the month of June & August...

Start in the month of June...
Tragic thing happen in June and it causes disbelief in me.
It happens to my Brother. He passed away on June 14, 2010 (exactly 2 mths now). To cut the entire story short and sweet... ^_^
He's a tour guide ever since I grow up as a child, maybe around 9yrs old (gap between me and my brother 9yrs). He loves traveling and ever since he's diagnosed with Kidney failure - a dialysis patient, he couldn't travel cos' needed to do dialysis 3 times a week. Most of the travel agencies knows my brother and he was black listed from traveling. He was devastated knowing that he couldn't travel.
This year, a company accepted him, not knowing his medical report, allowed him to fly. My brother went to Shanghai for the EXPO, bringing some Malaysians for a tour for a week. He came back and rested only 3 days (of course he did his dialysis the next day).. and he flew again to Taiwan for another trip. An accident happened in Taipei the very next day upon arrival and a few Malaysians was injured and hospitalized. Being my brother, he assisted all the tourist for check-up and so on except himself. He told the rest that he's OK and there's no pain, and he can continue the tour with them. 2 days later, on the Friday night (after their night market walk), he told some of the Malaysians that he'll go for check-up the next day as he felt something not right. Sadly, it happened that very morning itself (Saturday morning @ 1am). He gave a call to the receptionist to get the ambulance for him and before he could hang up the phone, he collapsed from the bed. Ambulance came but couldn't get into his room cos' he latch the room door and it took another few minutes to get the fire brigade to reach the hotel. All in all, my brother stop breathing for almost an hour from the time he lost conscious. He was sent straight to ICU that morning. We believe that's it due to the bus accident by the cliff that cos' him to have internal bleeding. Usually internal bleeding won't occur immediately and sadly he didn't go for the body check-up after the accident.
3 of my brother's colleague came to our house to tell us the news that morning. I was shocked but also in a calm way. Don't know how to react too. All I know that time is to send out text messages to all my Church friends and colleagues to pray for my brother - calling for an urgent prayer. I'm thankful that everyone responded and prayed for my brother. And another thing that I wanna thank God for is that God make a way for my dad and sister to get their passports done within a short notice and to have the air tickets ready within that few hours. I'm also thankful for the Staffs that works at the Immigration - thank God for the patience. And one last thing is, thank God for my brother's company, although he started working for 2-3weeks (can be counted as freelance) the boss willing to pay up all the expenses e.g hotel, air tickets, hospital bills and cremation. Its really God's covering over them. ^_^ My dad and sister manage to see him for the last time in Taipei. It's really a heart breaking one when they were there witnessing every moves that the doctor did. Thank God my mom didn't go, if not, we don't really know who to take care first. Everything went smoothly over in Taipei and also back in PJ. Really thank God for all my aunts and uncles that came by to help and to support. Really appreciate all of them.
My brother is now in heaven... we scattered his ashes into the sea cos' he's still a bachelor and it would be good for him. Seeing his ashes around would make us more heartache (from my point of view la).

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In the month of August...
Myself and Ryl signed up for this Hillsong UNITE + CONQUER Conference in Ipoh on August 11 and we attended both night concert which is on August 11 & 12. We started our journey at 5am on August 11, we slept for like 2hrs and we got up to wash up at 4am. Reach Ipoh right on time, 740am to attend the Conference which starts at 9am. After the Conference, we managed to check-in the hotel and we head straight for lunch. Went back to hotel to catch some beauty sleep after our lunch - we slept for another 2hrs (in total, we only had 4hrs of sleep on the Wednesday ^_^). Our first intention was to stay for one night concert and leaving to PJ the next day afternoon. Well, I asked Ryl if she can drive back after the concert on the August 12. Her replied was Yes. So we decided to stay till the 2nd night concert. haha. Totally random decision and thank God we stayed.
Am really blessed by the 2 speakers, Pr Lee & Pr Josh and also the team from Hillsong Australia. Their enthusiasm seems to draw me closer to God. Powerful message being shared by the 2 Pastors, it's indeed their living testimonies, shared from the heart. Short and yet impactful.
Both nights concert was totally AWESOME! Phenomenal that's the word they love to use. Crowds really going crazy for God that 2 nights - jumping, shouting and dancing with all their mights. Even the worship leader did his moves. haha. Really enjoyed the whole trip with Ryl too. We went for food hunting (not knowing Ipoh) we depend on her GPS... thank God for creative talents... inventing a GPS. The last night was a night to remember... right after concert, we headed back to PJ. We drove to the nearest 7-Eleven to grab some water and instant noodles in cup. We cooked our noodles in 7-Eleven cos they provide hot waters and we ate it in the car. haha. Isn't that cool! First time experience. ^_^

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August 14, 2010 is my nephew's birthday. The night itself my niece dreamt of my brother.
She told her grandma bout it. She was sitting on the couch, and she saw my brother walking down from upstairs. He was holding a present and giving that present to my nephew.
My mom asked my niece, "Did he say anything to you?" Niece shook her head and say "No".
Well, it's exactly 2mths now since my brother has gone to be with the Lord. Really missed him so much. *sigh* Just wondering how is he doing now... I'm sure he's happily enjoying his eternal life with God without pain and sufferings. ^_^ Would be seeing him one day in heaven.

What breaks your heart?

Does the word "break-up" really makes one person wake-up and start noticing their partners and appreciate them even more or do they just break-up the relationship and carry on with their lives...?

If one person would really wanna say those words, they really should think carefully. Cos God made us (male & female) different, with different personality, different character and so on.

Breaking up isn't a good word and its not easy to say so. Why can't a relationship come clean and treat one another better? Care and take time to listen to one another problems, so that everyone know where to turn to when they're down.

Just last week, I attended a CG frm Ampang Church. Cos I stayed over at Teo's resident for a night, so I tag along to the CG that Friday night. It was an eye opener that how open these lovely folks are. By the way, the whole CG are married couples and I'm the odd one. *haha* Spot light for the night and also my sister's colleague also from that CG.
We had ice breaker, worship and then sharing time. We were doing this 7-day personal devotion, written by our in house pastors. So we were on Day 2, talking about how God showed love in times of trouble.
Everyone shared their part, and it was rather emotional cos it touches relationships, hardships, and then how God bring them together and etc. Sharing on the love of God. Tears were flowing from the ladies and it was a heart felt sharing. Pouring out their emotions.
When they asked me to share, I was reluctant and saying I have nothing to share. They still insist la... so I did. That Day 2 sharing really spoke to me when I was reading it. Of how I wish to give up my ministry and be a normal Sunday Church attendant. But God gave me this passion and strength whenever I felt like giving up hope. And how He showed me love to stay on to the ministry and now, God gave me another direction. As in to start helping in the Children church. Heart aches whenever I see children cos I really don't know how to teach them and how to get them behave. I think I posted this earlier on (last month, bout my prophecy with John & Monette Jacks), been having these prophecies which speaks about children. God is good, He gave me my nephew to start off, although I have a 9yr old niece but I never really had that patience with her when she was young. Where else now with my nephew which is much worst than my niece to face with... God really gave me patience and tolerance to face him.
So there, I shared my part with the CG in Ampang... and the funny thing is, one of the member had this kid... and guess what, he said, "If you can get around with my 2 boys, you can get around with any kids..." *haha* He was highlighting that his 2 boys are the 2 naughtiest kids around.
I do learn something attending that CG, brings hope and love and the openness with one another. So what if we argued and throwing our temper to one another... so long we know how to apologize to one another and accept back each other... that helps us grows stronger. No one is perfect in this world except our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen!

What's the problem for being a "banana"?

Got a call this afternoon from an old lady.
At first she sounded polite (speaks in broken english), and then she asked for my name. So I told her my name and then she asked me whether I know mandarin and attempted to speak mandarin to me. I told her I know cantonese only.
I softly replied her, "May I know who are you asking for?". The old lady replied, "Looking for you..". Frankly speaking, I don't know who she is and she told me she's from the Chinese Church.
The next thing I know, she scolded me on the phone and shouted. I literally move the receiver away from my ear and I stoned.
This is what she scolded (roughly)... it's all translate into english version la.. cos she was scolding in cantonese.

Crazy old lady: I'M LOOKING FOR YOU! ARE YOU THE ONE WHO TELL ME TO LOOK FOR El. P.T NUMBER IN THE DIRECTORY? WHY ARE YOU SO RUDE TO CHINESE PEOPLE. HUH! ENGLISH CHURCH PEOPLE TRYING TO BULLY CHINESE CHURCH PEOPLE AH... HOW CAN YOU BE CHINESE WHEN YOU CAN'T EVEN SPEAK YOUR OWN LANGUAGE (mandarin)? I USED TO ATTEND YOUR CHURCH FOR 8 YEARS BUT I STOP GOING FOR AWHILE AND NOW I COME BACK. IS THAT HOW YOU ENGLISH CHURCH PEOPLE TREAT YOUR MEMBERS... *I moved the receiver away and I felt like hanging up the call*

Me: I didn't speak to you just now also... I don't think I'm the person that you're looking for... (spoke in a soft manner).

Crazy old lady: I DON'T CARE.. YOU GO ASKED AROUND WHO TALK TO ME IN THAT RUDE MANNER... I WAS JUST TRYING TO ASKED FOR El. P.T'S NUMBER AND SHE GO TELL ME TO SEARCH THE DIRECTORY... IS El. P.T THERE?!?! I WANT TO SPEAK TO HIM... PASS ME TO HIM...!!

Me: OK. wait ah... *happily passed the phone* and I told El. P.T that someone is very hot over the phone. Scold people like nobody's business.

Then my colleagues who are standing around my cubicle were shocked. "Huh! What did she say?" one of my colleague asked.

Told them she scolded me la... as if like it's my fault that I don't know mandarin or being rude to her over the phone. Which I did not speak to her. I never ever speak rudely to anyone on the phone before, except those who called to kacau-kacau or keep insisting that they call the right place. Even the worst Dr. Kamala who called me so often also I never sound rudely to her... where they themselves who are the ones that's being rude and scold people.

When I was telling my colleagues, I nearly cried out. How can that crazy old lady scold innocent people like me...!?!? Suddenly felt that I'm the guinea pig. Even that Dr. Kamala who called me last week, can't remember what she said and she was angry on the phone and said something about curse and then hang up the phone. That's even rude isn't it! But after awhile she calls back and apologise for what she has said to me earlier and say that she'll pray for me and my future. Everytime she calls, she'll said the same words. I feel like scolding her over the phone. She keeps telling me that people are cursing her and bla bla bla... I wanted to tell her off... Who's so free to curse you...? People have so many problems in their life, still got time to curse you ah.. I think you need to go see a psychiatrist la... How can you attend hindu and then tell me Christian stuff.. DOESN'T LINK!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lord! Forgive me Lord for acting this way... help me to stay patients with these people... need your strength, guidance, peace and Your Holy Spirit when I speak with these problematic people. And Lord, I pray that You guard our mouth piece when we speak to people over the phone. Not just myself but to all the entire Staff too. Thank You Lord!

Japan!

On Mar 20th (Saturday), I attended this seminar called Envision Your Destiny organize by NECF and it was held in my Church. There were 5 Speakers that day - Juwita Suwito, YB Hannah Yeoh, Malar Moses, Rosalind Yong & Tricia Yeoh.

Each speaker shares bout 30mins on how God has touched their lives and how God has bring them so far till today. Giving encouragement to the ladies and to be Esther (in the Bible), that we are called for a such a time as this. Changing the nation and making the difference in your country.

Its very encouraging hearing from the different ones and it brings new hope, and a new perspective of how God deal with individual. Testimonies after testimonies on their lives.

There's this particular lady, Rosalind Yong, where God called her to Japan and it breaks her heart whenever the word Japan appears. Cos she kept asking people to pray for Japan, pray for Japan until one day God sent her to scout the place and she began to fall in love with the country. Now, she's a missionary to Japan, doing what God wants her to do. When she speaks, it was rather dramatic cos of her speech and the tone of her voice. Doesn't sound convincing to me. ^_^ But you can feel how desperate she is to pray for Japan, and ask God to have mercy & save that nation from all the evil works. Well, I did pray together with her and prayed for her together with the rest of the participants. But there's no feeling for Japan or the eagerness to pray that much for them.

And then just now (Apr 1, 2010), I saw the most horrifying video over FB. It was posted by a friend over the Wall. I was curious and so I click it to watch. There's this lady, lying on the bed, unconscious & there's blood stains on her clothes. And there comes a naked man, went on top of her and start to rape her (fyi, those parts are censored and blurred, can't see their private parts). As he was raping her, I think there's 4 guys at the scene, 2 guys on the camera, 1 raping her and another guy was holding this parang or something. As the naked guy was raping her, this pathetic guy with the parang and a board... he place it below the girls leg and start chopping her feet off. Girl was still unconscious, and when he start to chop bit higher... the girl scream!

The man with parang climb up the bed, sat on her and he was holding something like a small knife and digging her mouth. I listen closely to them speak... guess what... its Japanese!

Guess I won't go into details for the video posted on YouTube. Its GROSSED!!! Are they human? Not to say just the Japanese... I'm sure they are more of these psycho out there on the road. God, are you going to punish these psycho or idiotic people that hurting the innocent people? I couldn't lay my hands on loving them, even as God said, we must love our neighbours and love for the lost. Argh! Now I know why Rosalind so wanted to pray for the Japanese.

We have to be fervent with our prayers, and yes, we must continue to love these sicko... but for the ladies out there, please please becareful of where you go and who you hang out with. Its better to prevent it than sorry later. Be aware of your surroundings and try to place 999 as one of your speed dial in case of any emergency.

Ministries...

Just last week, Rev. John & Monette Jacks drop by for a visit and so Pr. R just filled up his itinerary to have a few sessions with the different CGs and have him preach in our main service last Sunday.
The Pastors & Staff had the first privileged to have him with us during the Staff Devotion last Tuesday.
Monette prophesied on me, well, I was a little nervous and hopefully no prophecy la.. *haha* but then she called me. Its bout children again... Why I said again? Its because I have a few prophecies that somehow link to children. The previous ones sort of putting it aside due to my current ministry and I don't think I'm capable on teaching or even guiding the children. Kids are nasty. *haha*
After John & Monette's prophecy, I somehow thought about it and I talked to Pr. H for some advice. Telling him that I feel like dropping out from my current ministry and head over to Children Ministry instead. I'll probably start from the Sugarbun (toddlers - age 5), I somehow had the clicked with the younger ones. There's a sudden love and compassion for them. ^_^
And the prophecy continues from Monette saying that I'm the daughter, and I have the priviledge to ask from the Father. John confirms that and said that I'm in a room or a place that looks like a fairytale land but I somehow don't believe that the place is for me. *haha* Probably I need to consult again bout the whole prophecy thing and to really think bout switching to children ministry. Trying something different for a change...

Over due..

I have this post in my head for quite some time. Wanted to post it but seems to forgot bout it end of the day, and sometimes being occupied by playing FB.
Let's see.... gonna break them into different parts... cos I can't remember all of them but will just post everything into one. ^_^

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CNY was not bad, weather been hot. When to PG on the 2nd day of CNY and came back on 5th day of CNY, BB fetched me home. Ride home was OK... enjoyed the trip back home with him. He haven't drove me home for a long time.

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I ordered a personalised ring from Dexig Collection a week before CNY. It arrive in time and I love it so much but sadly, I mis-measured the ring size and its like 3mm bigger. Thank God I can re-size it but have to add rm15. Funny thing is, she's from PG and previously I bought a wallet from another guy who's also from PG. My BB said, "Wah! You like to buy stuff from PG woh..!" *hehe* I manage to drop my ring back to her to re-size it. Thought I could get it back before my BB comes the week after. Sadly, nope.
This girl that I got the ring from, she's very nice. Haven't really met her, talk to her once over the phone and most of the time communicating through gmail chat. She's friendly, and very open. Shared with me certain things and even asked me for opinion on a new name for her clothing shop. *hehe*
I'm amazed how open we can be over the chats. Haven't met at all... And soon next week she'll be moving over to Germany cos her BF is there. How nice. ^_^

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BB came down again after he went back on Feb 21. He came down on Feb 26 to celebrate my birthday 1 week earlier. Suppose to go for Shogun but didn't realize that it'll be fully booked. So I took BB to eat Bar-be-que Plaza, since he haven't tried before. Then the next day, we went to a friends house for dinner on Feb 27. They invited us over including another 2 couples. I made Potato salad, some brought dessert, pork and the host cook the main dish - pork knuckle. Yummy!
The next day (Sunday), BB has to go home. *sigh* Well, he bought me this wireless mouse which is super slim. I love it! Thank you BB. Love You!

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On Wednesday, Mar 3rd, I went to Lelong.com, they have this Superbid which last for a day only. So I was browsing it for fun and guess what... I saw this notebook bag which is very nice. So I bid for it. My max price for that bag is rm50+rm10 (shipping fees). At the end of the day... the final bid is rm90 (includes shipping). Itchy finger... I go click it another time which hits rm80. Anyway, its something I like... so won't feel 'sum thong'. {^_^}v

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On Mar 4th, I was overwhelmed with all those birthday wishes. Ryl brought me out for lunch, we went for Boston at 32Square. Food was good but one of the waiter was kinda distracting... he has this funny hairstyle - its really weird. *haha*
Some close friends took me out for dinner, we went to Seoul Garden. Ate alot and very full. And I bought myself a Michael Buble album. Love the songs..
Might be going for steamboat buffet with family on Sat.. but parents don't like. *sigh* They prefer typical chinese food. *double sigh*

Encourage by His Words...

Just yesterday, BF shared with me one encouraging thing.
It's about his Uncle (dad's side). His Uncle was diagnosed with diabetes and was quite serious one. When a patients gets it, it can't be cured. So his Uncle was praying to God (he's a Catholic), for a good medicines that helps him to maintain his sugar level.
So there he tried all sorts of meds, from Taiwan meds to what ever he comes across or through his friends recommendation.
When the time comes where he has to go for his regular check-up... the Doc was surprised that he couldn't find any reading of diabetes on him. BF's Uncle also don't know which medicine cures his diabetes but I know.. ^_^
I told my BF, probably its God who already cured him on that day he prayed the prayer. Just like Jesus said, "Although your faith is as small as the mustard seed, you will be healed."
Was really encouraged by his testimony. ^_^ God is good huh!
It was cute of his Uncle to pray that prayer... not asking God to heal his diabetes but to ask for a good medicine to prevent the sugar level.

Happy, Happy CNY... Happy, Happy You & I...

Happy Tigerous New Year People!!!

It's Valentine's Day & also Chinese New Year... & also happy birthday for those whose birthdays falls on the same day... 3 blessings in a month, where to find!? ^_^
A friend asked me, "How to differentiate male & female on the above picture?" Frankly speaking, I don't know! *haha* Probably the darker fur is male cos he look more dominion than the slightly light brown fur. Hard to tell huh!
Anyway, we had a Combined Service with Chinese Church on the first day of CNY (Feb 14) and guess what... the English Church member were out-numbered by the Chinese Church members. *haha* We had total of 230 people came for the service... amazing huh! I was in awed to see all the Chinese Church members and the preaching was done by Elder Philip from Chinese Church and was translated by Pastor Y.O's wife (si mou in canto). Sermon was good... and we ended service at 10:30am. Mostly every year, Chinese Church gathers at Cheras Church for their service but the attendance was poor, maybe too far for PJ people. So when they heard that its a combined service with English Church at PJ... alot of them attends.
4 days before CNY, my left eye was swollen (on the eye lid). And I took a day off on Thur for a hair cut appointment and also to surprise a friend at LCCT. Ryl & myself drove to LCCT like 6:15am to pick up Cie and I did a banner for her to Welcome her home. *haha* We were almost late, left my house at 6:15am and reach LCCT at 7am. Ryl drive super fast cos when we reach the highway, it was already 6:35am and I told Ryl, hope we could reach in time cos it's almost 6:40am. Ryl prayed that Cie would be late... *haha* anyhow, Cie's mom & bro were late too... they arrived like 5mins before us. Thank God we manage to reach on time. And know what, we were too free... we fetch her down to Malacca too just to get her car back from Leong's house. Despite my swollen left eye I still take the initiative to go cause promise already mah, don't want to break my promise. We reach Malacca around 10am and we had bak kut teh for breakfast (actually 2nd breakfast cos we ordered take away at McD's, LCCT). Hang around at Leong's house for awhile and then we head back to KL for our saloon appointment @ Kenza. It was fun doing something crazy for a day... good sharing with one another in the car. ^_^ After our hair cut, head back to Cie's house and went to Pasar Malam for dinner. Poor Cie, have to stayed up till 12am (which is Sydney time 3am). I didn't join them for mamak cos mostly are from Chinese Church, not so familiar with them.
Then on Fri morning, left eye still swollen. Went to work with glasses on, so uncool! Anyway, Pr R declared half day. We ordered Blessing Cookies to be given out on Sunday but sadly they missed out our orders, so Uncle C needs to go buy mandarin oranges to give out on Sunday. *sigh* If not I could have gone home earlier. And TAK gave us mangoes from Aus and some mandarin oranges... the mangoes are yummy!
After work, my dad drove me to see eye specialist. Dad thought of going to a normal GP but mom said No. So we went to the eye specialist at Tmn Sea and guess what, it cost me RM104, medication (allergy pills and ointment for the eye lids) + GP fees. I have to go back for check-up this Fri morning and it'll cost RM40-60. Gosh!!! Darn expensive weh... Doc said it could be allergy. But I'm not allergy to any food and I don't have rashes on my body. There's 2/3 reason for it.. 1. Allergy, 2. my Cons/the new solutions that I just change or 3. the eye cream that my sis gave me. So from now onwards, I'll just stick back to my old solutions - dare not change (it was given free and its well known brand). *hmmm...* Thank God the swell reduce on the 2nd day, don't want to go PG with a swollen eye.
Was chatting with a friend on Sunday nite, she had a similar problem like mine. Eyelid swollen cause by contact lenses and she have to removed some stuff inside the eyelid by going for surgery and it cost RM2k. Walau! Hearing from her experience, it gave me goosebumps. But now she went for eye lasik last year... and she's happy with it. I thought about eye lasik but then I just got my glasses like less than half a year (still new) and I have another half year of cons. Might think about it in another 2 yrs time la... when I settle down and got more money first. ^_^
So that's basically what happened for the passed few days.

Woah.. February U came too soon!?!?

My gosh! February is HERE!!! I think I've not really gone through January yet... What have I accomplished in January...??? Hmmm... *thinking hard* Quite a fair bit I guessed. ^_^
Anyway, had a great time in PG last week. Managed to give a surprise to my BB on Jan 29. Was telling him that I'll be arriving at my usual time at night but I was already there at 3pm. Was hiding in his sister's room at first when he came back around 7pm but afraid that I might surprise the wrong person (sister may go into the room). So since he hasn't walked upstairs, I quickly run into his room and hide behind a cupboard. I was also smart enough to hide my shoe, my backpack and my notebook at the other side of the bed where he can't see when he walks into the room. But the sad thing was, I waited quite long in his room and no sign of him walking up. So I thought of walking to his sister's room again to hide and as I walked out... there he was, walking up and he saw me. It was quite dark upstairs (ard to 7:30pm), he didn't really know it's me, he was stoned for a while till I walked closer to him and said, "Surprised!" *haha* At the moment when he was stoned, he thought it was his sister but then doesn't look like.. *sigh* I should have walked into his sister's room la... but anyway, its good enough that I manage to surprised him.
Had a great time in PG, went for my favourite food and guess what, I gain 2kgs within that 4 days... Aah...! Need to go on diet again this 2 weeks... cos I'll be heading up to PG for CNY. We went for movie - Legion, not too bad but they somehow project God in a wrong way, wrong perception of who God is. Warning: If you are an easily persuade person, don't go watch it. It shows how God wanna wipe out everyone cos of all the sins and darkness in the world. So, if you're an easily convince kinda person, I suggest you don't go watch. It may persuade you that God is bad. ^_^

Wow! Can't believe that its February now. Looking forward to see my dear friend that will be back soon... in a week time (right Cie!). Will be going to a hair saloon with her & ryl on the day she arrives. Can't wait to catch up with U.
This morning (Feb 3), I received a call just before I leave for work. Its one of my friend, whom I met while I was working in Glad Sounds 9 yrs ago. Its been few years since he last call me and I was surprised to hear from him. Dad was the one who picked up the phone and he told me Eric on the phone. Was scratching my head and wonder who this Eric is. Memory came back as soon as he said, "Hello! Happy New Year!" Actually he called me earlier while I was in PG that week, called to asked for my home address, guess he wants to send me a CNY card. After I quit Glad Sounds, he never failed to send me greeting cards for that 2-3 yrs. Till now only I remember. It was sweet of him to remember me and to give me a call. Why am I speaking so fondly of him..? Well, he was the only friend that I know who is physically challenge (blind) besides Yong Yau who has gone with the Lord for 10 years now... Yong Yau will always be in our memories. So yeah... was encouraged by Eric... being optimistic and having that faith with God everywhere he goes. Not afraid to share his life with people he come across with, not shy of his disabilities.
So you people out there, who can SEE, FEEL, WALK, and TALK, don't take things around you and what you can do for granted. Appreciate those people around you, and those things that God has given you (eyes, hands, legs, body etc...). We're really blessed to be walking around, talking, doing things with our hands and what we can see with our eyes... We need to Thank God for it everyday! ^_^

GOD is GREAT although things turns UGLY...

If you notice my last 2 blogs has been negative... yeah, yeah, the mood swing again. ^_^ (Not because of the PMS oh...)

Anyway, had a great day last Sunday Service. Had a visiting speaker Rev. Wong Kim Kong to preach. Didn't really sit in during his sermon (feeling guilty), well, I have reasons to back me up. I was actually sitting at the backroom cos I was on duty for visuals and during that time, the Chicken Rice fella called up to asked for directions... so there, I have to go out to the foyer to guide him. He's coming from Puchong. So he called me like 4-5 times, might as well wait for his phone call out in the foyer. We're having Worship Mtg. that day after service, and my Visual team is the host, to prepare lunch and ice breaker. Ooh.. just wanna shout out to GL & EV for preparing the ice breaker... and also to the youths that did the dance together with them... it was fun!
OK. Back to it... I did listened to Rev. Kim Kong preached like for 15mins. Sharing some jokes which I find it hilarious. So that it somehow breaks the ice inside of me.

Comes to the meeting, had fun ice breaker, great worship led by K-Y.

First praise song was The Love of can do (Hillsong)...

Chorus:
Love flies higher, walks through fire
Doesn't change from day to day
If it's really love, it just won't give up,
Love will never pass away...

Bridge:
Love is PATIENT, Love is KIND,
If someone else wins, Love doesn't mind...
Love BELIEVES, Love FORGIVES,
And GOD is the start of ALL of this...

Verse:
He can make a way where there isn't a way (that's what the LOVE of GOD can do..)
Everything can start new everyday (that's what the LOVE of GOD can do..)
The whole WORLD CHANGE when LOVE STEPS IN... (that's what the LOVE of GOD can do..)
Hearts to SAVE and A WORLD to WIN... (that's what the LOVE of GOD can do..)

There, somehow God knows when you're feeling down or upset at certain things, He will turn things around. Just like how He showed Love to me through songs and even sharing. Alex shared on Love (1 Corinthians 13:4-8). And then J.W shared the same thing too.
Acronym for LOVE:
L = Level of Love
O = Obedience
V = Victorious
E = Encourage

Again, it hits me. Three times... Am I all-out-of-love??? Nope! Was telling myself, "Wow! God is indeed awesome. The word LOVE hits me three times. How odd can it be..?"
In the song it says "We are suppose to save hearts and win the world over from the devils plot by showing LOVE... not our sadness or possessions that we have in our hands." We can't exchange LOVE with money, can't buy LOVE either. ^_^
Just want to shout out again... this time is to GOD.
HE IS INDEED AWESOME!!! *hugs & kisses*

BORED = SIEN~~~

BORING.... yeah... that's the word for... not only today but felt it ever since the new year started. Hmmm... bad thing to start off the new year huh! What can I say... *speechless* Its so mundane.
Felt better when my niece & nephew were around, cos get to play Wii with them but on the other hand, when nephew is in the bad mood... I wouldn't want to be near him. I'll loose my temper on him. Argh! What should I do???
One of my colleague just took 1 mth unpaid leave, how nice...
I also want to take leave... take leave from everything that I'm doing - ministry, work, etc... (or maybe relationship) just don't feel right, everything seems to be dragging myself from doing. How can serving God be a drag? We're not suppose to feel this way, suppose to have peace & joy working in God's Kingdom. *sigh*
Anyway, been surfing the net yesterday & today (or I should say the whole month), and been sleeping late every night. Hope I'm not having Insomnia...
Was browsing some online shopping and kinda interested in some of the stuff on the blog. Will probably get them next month... *haha* can't wait! Well, it's something which is personalized and some were like handmade.
This thought just came to me, maybe I should travel down to Malacca on my own for once. Pay my friend a visit and come back on my own by bus. Or maybe take a bus up to Genting on my own for a change. Enjoy myself at the theme park with the different rides. Will it be a FUN day or SAD day??? I don't know, have not tried it. Hmmm.... I just wanna go somewhere... Where can I go??? Feel so trap... :-P

What's Up 2010...

What's up 2010?
How's your New Year?? Anything special happened?
Well, for me, I started off my New Year attending a dear friend's wedding, who happened to be my colleague, and also a Youth Pastor - married a beautiful Korean girl.
Was helping him out with Visuals on that day... such a lovely scene to be at the backstage.. can see everything. Truly honoured to help him out. ^_^
Oh ya.. both my BB and I celebrated New Year's eve at 1U again. I felt bad cos my BB have to stand for 2-3hours at the concert - outside 1U (sayang you banyak-banyak oh!). ^_^ The funny part was, my parents actually followed us (together with my sister & her kids) for the Countdown party at 1U... cos we got extra passes for the concert, Beyond live (Paul Wong & Sai Keung). Sadly, not many people know their own solo album until they sang their Beyond hits after countdown. Didn't really enjoy the fireworks too cos the smoke somehow covers the lovely lights.
OK. Enough of that, let's move on.
We had a Combined Sunday Church Service with all our Outreach Churches (includes Chinese congregation), so our Sunday Service is in bilingual. And again, I wanna say thank you to my BB for sacrificing his sleep to join me for this special day. *muaks muaks* but I cooked instant noodle for you for breakfast woh... I myself didn't eat leh... ^_^ I should deserved a kiss too right...
Sunday Service was awesome. PJ Chinese Church took over the worship... frankly speaking, the entire worship was too loud. Now I truly appreciate our PJ English Church Soundman that went through the training by 1a.m. Probably our PJ English Church Soundman can help with the Sound system next year. Sound check is so important!!! And we need extra speaker for the back, so that the volume can be balance and not just blast the front for the sake of the back people. I really pity those who sits in front.
Our Group Pastor delivers a great message and he launched this year's theme at the end of his sermon with colourful balloons falling from the top... the theme is the Year of God's Love! Love came down, EVERYTHING CHANGED!
When I see the colourful balloons, I have this wild idea for my wedding. *haha* I think you might have guess it... Balloons!!! Colourful balloons! Actually not so much... I want helium balloons and heart shape ones. If possible... with a few more colours.
Decorate it on every chair along the aisle and when we walked back after pastor announced as husband and wife... those seated along the aisle would just cut or let go the balloons. How nice right.. looking at balloons floating into the sky, especially when its on the beach *dreaming away*. And then would keep some for the kids and photoshoot... *sigh* I don't think this would happen... guess my BB wouldn't wanna waste the money like this. :-/
Anyway, that's what happen during the first week of New Year... Hope that everyone would have a blast this year and may you guys be filled with God's Love even more. *hugs*

Year Ends... New Year has come!

Wow! Can't believe that Christmas is just around the corner...! Have you guys finish buying Christmas gifts yet? Well, I'm almost done shopping... all I have to do is just putting names for the gifts that I want to give. Christmas is bout' giving, not so much of receiving... cos' God already given us the most precious gift He has ever had - which is Jesus Himself. More over He suffered for us just to give us life, love, joy, peace, and more to come!!!

So, what have you accomplished in this year 2009? Any significant thing happened in your life and that you want to thank God for?
Year end is also a time of Thanksgiving, glorifying God for all the good things that He has done for you not so much of what you have done with your own strength, without Him, I don't think we can even survived! Let's ponder back what God has done in our lives so that we can thank Him for.

I really want to thank God for the strength that He has given me everyday... just enough to survived the day and to wake up the next day without any complains... *haha* But seriously, I'm thankful for His strength to guide me everyday and even forgive me for the things that I've done. At time when I have mixed feelings, He would remind me back of what I'm suppose to do. Saying, "Do not worry so much...! I have everything under control." He never seems to failed to comfort me when I cried myself to sleep, songs of love came in my mind (like He's trying to force me sing the songs thats running in my head ^_^).

Hmm... now, as I type, I have this mixed feelings again. *sigh*

Next year, 2010 is drawing closer each day... What do I want to see, or to achieve in 2010? I'm not going to do another resolution thingy... which I think its a waste of time cos' you won't be achieving it anyway. e.g. I wanna travel to at least 2 different countries or do certain things which I've not tried...

Sometimes I just feel tired... worn off... and fed-up when you can't seem to implement the things that you want (fyi, not office matters... don't get me wrong).

Very well, I have a 5 videos which I have to accomplish before year end... Fun, Faith, Family, Finance & Friendship. This is our theme for this year "Year of Possibilities".

Black Christmas?!?!

I just came back from PG on Monday since its long holiday over the weekend. It wasn't crowded in PG... nothing much happen there. Met up with one of my bestie for lunch on Sunday, its been so long since we last met. Felt bad cos every time go PG didn't ask them out for drinks. I finally watched 2012 at PG, can't believe it - after 2 weeks on screen, the cinema is still packed. I have to wait for my BB to watch la... watch together ma, although was so tempted to go watch during the first week of release. ^_^ We went to Queensbay Mall for our dinner and window shopping and I did a little shopping for some Christmas pressie. Go all the way to PG to buy Christmas presents... gosh! as if PJ doesn't have it. ^_^ So we walked towards the center court to see their Christmas decor... guess the theme for this year? Black Christmas! Was really shocked by it. The chandelier dangling thing are all in black and the backdrop too... I didn't go near to see the Christmas tree but from the picture.. thank God the ornaments isn't all black. I think there's some silver, plus black. Funny! I've yet to see how 1U and MidValley's Christmas theme looks like. I roughly saw the theme for 1U is white... walked passed it on Monday night when the workers still working on it. Didn't really walked the whole round. Anyway, on Sunday afternoon, both myself and BB fixed up the cupboard. My Church wanted to give away this cupboard, so I thought my BB would like it cos it has glass. He can keep his Transformers toys in it. The cupboard now looks bit empty, this shows that he has to get the entire collection now to filled up the empty spaces. ^_^

Crooked by 1a.m.

This MV is great... watch it.

Sun is shining....

You are my sunshine, My only sunshine,
You make me HAPPY when skies are grey...
You never hold dear, How much I LOVE YOU...
Please don't take my sunshine away...

*haha*

Just feels like singing that song... ^_^
The weather these few days was abit funny. I was awaken by morning sun twice in my room (Tue & Wed). Cos I was sort of lazy to get up when my alarm rang.
Guess God has to use the sun to shine on me... "Wake up my dear child... its time to go to work! You don't want to be late..." *haha*
I think I wrote this post before but can't seem to remember when was it.
Anyway, it was sunny when I wake up (Tue morning), and after my shower... the sky was a little gloomy. And true enough... it rain yesterday (almost half of the day). This morning, same thing happen... the morning sun and after my bath, the sky wasn't that sunny... but now (est 1:45pm) the sky was kinda clear. Weird huh! Was hoping that it'll rain. ^_^ So bad hor... rain causes traffic jams...
Just want to thank God for the morning sun. Indeed He manage to wake me up!
cheers people... don't complain hot ya!

Busy like a bee....

I'm not suppose to blog now cos it's during office hour (half an hour to 5 o'clock).
Anyway, we had guest speaker Bishop "Chito" Sanchez, Pr. Rachel (Bishop Chito's wife) & Kate from Manilla, Philippines during our Sunday Service and as well as Staff Devotion on Tue morning. Pr Rachel and Kate prayed for me on Sunday morning. Don't feel like going out for prayer that Sunday cos I was on duty (although X.Y was there), but then there's an urge for me to go out.
Before one of them start to pray I was already in tears. Never felt so relieved, and felt God's presence was so AWESOME! My shoulders and hands was so hot. The reason I went for prayer was to released what I encountered a few days ago.
What happen was, my parents had a stupid arguement - over mahjong and from there dad brought out other stuff that's been buried in his heart. Both of them shouting at each other and sort of daring one another e.g cut the phone line, cut Astro, water and so on. I was sitting at the living room, not joining their arguement cos I know it'll be worst. It's just so irritating, after watching my HK series, I went up to my room. Couldn't stand it, why is it always me who have to face these arguements. Was reading my Archies' that night... tried to laugh over the jokes or conversation but just couldn't. So, I cried myself to sleep that night not wanting to hear from anyone. Pretended nothing happen the next morning and go on with my life but its just tough. Hard.
So that's why I had the urge to go out for prayer on Sunday morning to release everything out to God. I know I could have release my feelings to God on that night itself when things happen.. just that I never thought about it - kinda put God aside.
The speaker did mention one thing - NEVER come to GOD only on SUNDAYS! We must have an intimate relationship with Him everyday just like how we have relationship with our love ones. Don't be busier as a bee... work, work, and work. Need to pray and have that relationship with God in our everyday life. It hit me hard on the face. We just have to slow down our pace (e.g our work) and to have that friendship with God.
As for the Tue morning Staff Devotion, everyone was being prayed and prophesied for... I was the last one. Pr Rachel prayer for me. Had a few prophecies. I have to listen back to the mp3, can't remember all of it. ^_^ Will continue again on my next post.

dream... dream... dream....

I had a dream this morning. Dreamt it twice in a day. Waken by my dog's barking ard 9:50am and I went back to continue my sleep, I dream the same thing again - like continue from the earlier one.
I dreamt bout Vampires. Just to let you know, I didn't watch the movie Twilight although I heard it was not bad, so I reckon its similar to what I've dreamt.
By the way, I notice my brother has a book that interpret Dreams (peep into the book the other day when he wasn't around. Note to Gracie: I will look into the interpretation on eye & feet for you tomorrow ya! ^_^). That day I was just browsing it... never really look into it.
So after my dream, I immediately remember bout the book my brother has. So this morning, I sneak into my brother's room to search for the word Vampires - true enough there is explanation on that.

Here's the interpretation of Vampire.

Vampire The most obvious image of a vampire is of a creature that is dead and sucks the blood of the living, rising from the grave at night to do so - then sleeping all day in a most inhuman-like fashion. Your blood is your life force, it carries with it everything you need to survive; if your blood drains away, you become weak and die. Vampires are therefore the parasites of the supernatural realm; they share a world with ghouls (creatures that prey on the dead), and the succubi and incubi that take on human form to have sex with sleeping people. In the pastm when the Catholic Church was a little more superstitious, they blamed a person's apparently sudden sexual awareness on these sexual interlopers of the night. Vampires are often repelled by simple, natural things like day-light; they are also turned away by religious symbols in mythology. Dreaming of these parasitic creatures can signify a number of things: that a part of your existence is having the life sucked out of it, that you need to take a closer look at the most tiresome aspects of your life and dispel the worries connected with them or that you need to employ some kind of self-protection or preservation. It may be that your partner is holding you back, or that your mother is trying to control every aspect of your life so that your energy is being drained away. It is also possible, but rare, that you are the one behaving in a parasitic manner and are subconsciously quite disturbed by it. Alternatively, to dream of seeing a vampire may indicate that you are feeling seductive, powerful and very sensual.