What breaks your heart?

Does the word "break-up" really makes one person wake-up and start noticing their partners and appreciate them even more or do they just break-up the relationship and carry on with their lives...?

If one person would really wanna say those words, they really should think carefully. Cos God made us (male & female) different, with different personality, different character and so on.

Breaking up isn't a good word and its not easy to say so. Why can't a relationship come clean and treat one another better? Care and take time to listen to one another problems, so that everyone know where to turn to when they're down.

Just last week, I attended a CG frm Ampang Church. Cos I stayed over at Teo's resident for a night, so I tag along to the CG that Friday night. It was an eye opener that how open these lovely folks are. By the way, the whole CG are married couples and I'm the odd one. *haha* Spot light for the night and also my sister's colleague also from that CG.
We had ice breaker, worship and then sharing time. We were doing this 7-day personal devotion, written by our in house pastors. So we were on Day 2, talking about how God showed love in times of trouble.
Everyone shared their part, and it was rather emotional cos it touches relationships, hardships, and then how God bring them together and etc. Sharing on the love of God. Tears were flowing from the ladies and it was a heart felt sharing. Pouring out their emotions.
When they asked me to share, I was reluctant and saying I have nothing to share. They still insist la... so I did. That Day 2 sharing really spoke to me when I was reading it. Of how I wish to give up my ministry and be a normal Sunday Church attendant. But God gave me this passion and strength whenever I felt like giving up hope. And how He showed me love to stay on to the ministry and now, God gave me another direction. As in to start helping in the Children church. Heart aches whenever I see children cos I really don't know how to teach them and how to get them behave. I think I posted this earlier on (last month, bout my prophecy with John & Monette Jacks), been having these prophecies which speaks about children. God is good, He gave me my nephew to start off, although I have a 9yr old niece but I never really had that patience with her when she was young. Where else now with my nephew which is much worst than my niece to face with... God really gave me patience and tolerance to face him.
So there, I shared my part with the CG in Ampang... and the funny thing is, one of the member had this kid... and guess what, he said, "If you can get around with my 2 boys, you can get around with any kids..." *haha* He was highlighting that his 2 boys are the 2 naughtiest kids around.
I do learn something attending that CG, brings hope and love and the openness with one another. So what if we argued and throwing our temper to one another... so long we know how to apologize to one another and accept back each other... that helps us grows stronger. No one is perfect in this world except our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen!

What's the problem for being a "banana"?

Got a call this afternoon from an old lady.
At first she sounded polite (speaks in broken english), and then she asked for my name. So I told her my name and then she asked me whether I know mandarin and attempted to speak mandarin to me. I told her I know cantonese only.
I softly replied her, "May I know who are you asking for?". The old lady replied, "Looking for you..". Frankly speaking, I don't know who she is and she told me she's from the Chinese Church.
The next thing I know, she scolded me on the phone and shouted. I literally move the receiver away from my ear and I stoned.
This is what she scolded (roughly)... it's all translate into english version la.. cos she was scolding in cantonese.

Crazy old lady: I'M LOOKING FOR YOU! ARE YOU THE ONE WHO TELL ME TO LOOK FOR El. P.T NUMBER IN THE DIRECTORY? WHY ARE YOU SO RUDE TO CHINESE PEOPLE. HUH! ENGLISH CHURCH PEOPLE TRYING TO BULLY CHINESE CHURCH PEOPLE AH... HOW CAN YOU BE CHINESE WHEN YOU CAN'T EVEN SPEAK YOUR OWN LANGUAGE (mandarin)? I USED TO ATTEND YOUR CHURCH FOR 8 YEARS BUT I STOP GOING FOR AWHILE AND NOW I COME BACK. IS THAT HOW YOU ENGLISH CHURCH PEOPLE TREAT YOUR MEMBERS... *I moved the receiver away and I felt like hanging up the call*

Me: I didn't speak to you just now also... I don't think I'm the person that you're looking for... (spoke in a soft manner).

Crazy old lady: I DON'T CARE.. YOU GO ASKED AROUND WHO TALK TO ME IN THAT RUDE MANNER... I WAS JUST TRYING TO ASKED FOR El. P.T'S NUMBER AND SHE GO TELL ME TO SEARCH THE DIRECTORY... IS El. P.T THERE?!?! I WANT TO SPEAK TO HIM... PASS ME TO HIM...!!

Me: OK. wait ah... *happily passed the phone* and I told El. P.T that someone is very hot over the phone. Scold people like nobody's business.

Then my colleagues who are standing around my cubicle were shocked. "Huh! What did she say?" one of my colleague asked.

Told them she scolded me la... as if like it's my fault that I don't know mandarin or being rude to her over the phone. Which I did not speak to her. I never ever speak rudely to anyone on the phone before, except those who called to kacau-kacau or keep insisting that they call the right place. Even the worst Dr. Kamala who called me so often also I never sound rudely to her... where they themselves who are the ones that's being rude and scold people.

When I was telling my colleagues, I nearly cried out. How can that crazy old lady scold innocent people like me...!?!? Suddenly felt that I'm the guinea pig. Even that Dr. Kamala who called me last week, can't remember what she said and she was angry on the phone and said something about curse and then hang up the phone. That's even rude isn't it! But after awhile she calls back and apologise for what she has said to me earlier and say that she'll pray for me and my future. Everytime she calls, she'll said the same words. I feel like scolding her over the phone. She keeps telling me that people are cursing her and bla bla bla... I wanted to tell her off... Who's so free to curse you...? People have so many problems in their life, still got time to curse you ah.. I think you need to go see a psychiatrist la... How can you attend hindu and then tell me Christian stuff.. DOESN'T LINK!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lord! Forgive me Lord for acting this way... help me to stay patients with these people... need your strength, guidance, peace and Your Holy Spirit when I speak with these problematic people. And Lord, I pray that You guard our mouth piece when we speak to people over the phone. Not just myself but to all the entire Staff too. Thank You Lord!

Japan!

On Mar 20th (Saturday), I attended this seminar called Envision Your Destiny organize by NECF and it was held in my Church. There were 5 Speakers that day - Juwita Suwito, YB Hannah Yeoh, Malar Moses, Rosalind Yong & Tricia Yeoh.

Each speaker shares bout 30mins on how God has touched their lives and how God has bring them so far till today. Giving encouragement to the ladies and to be Esther (in the Bible), that we are called for a such a time as this. Changing the nation and making the difference in your country.

Its very encouraging hearing from the different ones and it brings new hope, and a new perspective of how God deal with individual. Testimonies after testimonies on their lives.

There's this particular lady, Rosalind Yong, where God called her to Japan and it breaks her heart whenever the word Japan appears. Cos she kept asking people to pray for Japan, pray for Japan until one day God sent her to scout the place and she began to fall in love with the country. Now, she's a missionary to Japan, doing what God wants her to do. When she speaks, it was rather dramatic cos of her speech and the tone of her voice. Doesn't sound convincing to me. ^_^ But you can feel how desperate she is to pray for Japan, and ask God to have mercy & save that nation from all the evil works. Well, I did pray together with her and prayed for her together with the rest of the participants. But there's no feeling for Japan or the eagerness to pray that much for them.

And then just now (Apr 1, 2010), I saw the most horrifying video over FB. It was posted by a friend over the Wall. I was curious and so I click it to watch. There's this lady, lying on the bed, unconscious & there's blood stains on her clothes. And there comes a naked man, went on top of her and start to rape her (fyi, those parts are censored and blurred, can't see their private parts). As he was raping her, I think there's 4 guys at the scene, 2 guys on the camera, 1 raping her and another guy was holding this parang or something. As the naked guy was raping her, this pathetic guy with the parang and a board... he place it below the girls leg and start chopping her feet off. Girl was still unconscious, and when he start to chop bit higher... the girl scream!

The man with parang climb up the bed, sat on her and he was holding something like a small knife and digging her mouth. I listen closely to them speak... guess what... its Japanese!

Guess I won't go into details for the video posted on YouTube. Its GROSSED!!! Are they human? Not to say just the Japanese... I'm sure they are more of these psycho out there on the road. God, are you going to punish these psycho or idiotic people that hurting the innocent people? I couldn't lay my hands on loving them, even as God said, we must love our neighbours and love for the lost. Argh! Now I know why Rosalind so wanted to pray for the Japanese.

We have to be fervent with our prayers, and yes, we must continue to love these sicko... but for the ladies out there, please please becareful of where you go and who you hang out with. Its better to prevent it than sorry later. Be aware of your surroundings and try to place 999 as one of your speed dial in case of any emergency.