Just Married...

Its the time of the year again... December...

How time flies...

And its time for me to update my blog.. LOL.

This whole year 2011 has been an awesome year and God has blessed me so much.

Filion and I finally tied the knot in July. And I can really see God's love and blessing upon my marriage. There's a lot of stuff that I would love to have it on my wedding day, from the venue to the decors and to the wedding favours... and having a grand wedding.

Oh well, I'm glad that we have a simple wedding and be contented from what we have and we've been blessed by different ones.

One of my colleague helped me design my wedding card and my Hubby's friend printed our wedding card for free, not only that, our wedding favours were also bless by Hubby's friend. Truly thank God that He has given us so much. We truly found favour in God's eyes and also from men.

We sort of just came back from our honeymoon. We went to Korea in Nov, which is winter. Its our first trip to Korea and I really love it although its freezing cold and communication is just so hard. Love the weather when its 10-17degree and I love the clean country. Somehow the air is also fresher. LOL.

There's one area that I regretted, that is allowing Hubby's friend (newly married couple) to join our honeymoon tour with us. Problem is, its his friends that I'm not familiar with and we have language barrier. I don't understand half (or more) from their conversation and I felt left out. Damn sickening.

*sigh* :-(

Lesson to learn, don't ever allow your Hubby talked you into bringing his friends for honeymoon... unless both know each other very well.

Look what master Rabbit says....

Rat (North) Chiang Mai Vientiane Ox (East) Philippines K. Kinabalu Tiger (North East) Hong Kong Guangzhou Rabbit (East) Miri Labuan Dragon (South East) Bali Jakarta Snake (East/South East) Balikpapan Yogyakarta Horse (South) Singapore Bandung Goat (South West) Medan Padang Monkey (West) Pekanbaru Penang Rooster (West) Yangon Phuket Dog (West/North West) Dhaka Phuket Boar (West/North West) Tiruchirappalli Yangon Book now master Rabbit says I should travel to Penang more often... haha... How interesting... ^_^

Is there God?

Psalm 14:1-7 (NIV)

The fool says in his heart, "There is no God."

They are corrupt, their deeds are vile; there is no one who does good.

[2] The Lord looks down from heaven on the sons of men to see if there are any

who understand, any who seek God.

[3] All have turned aside, they have together become corrupt;

there is no one who does good, not even one.

[4] Will evildoers never learn---those who devour my people as men eat bread

and who do not call on the Lord?

[5] There they are, overwhelmed with dread, for God is present in the company of the righteous. [6] You evildoers frustrate the plans of the poor, but the Lord is their refuge.

[7] Oh, that salvation for Israel would come out of Zion!

When the Lord restores the fortunes of his people, let Jacob rejoice and Israel be glad!

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Being pruned by God

~ Sept 13, 6pm

Was pruning one of my fruit tree in the afternoon... cutting off some of the branches that's blocking the walk way.
Suddenly this thought came to me while trimming the tree.
God prune us so that we may bear fruit and also be fruitful... but do you realised how hard it is for the person to prune?
I'm sure God feels the pain when He lay the pruning scissors on us.

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In the month of June & August...

Start in the month of June...
Tragic thing happen in June and it causes disbelief in me.
It happens to my Brother. He passed away on June 14, 2010 (exactly 2 mths now). To cut the entire story short and sweet... ^_^
He's a tour guide ever since I grow up as a child, maybe around 9yrs old (gap between me and my brother 9yrs). He loves traveling and ever since he's diagnosed with Kidney failure - a dialysis patient, he couldn't travel cos' needed to do dialysis 3 times a week. Most of the travel agencies knows my brother and he was black listed from traveling. He was devastated knowing that he couldn't travel.
This year, a company accepted him, not knowing his medical report, allowed him to fly. My brother went to Shanghai for the EXPO, bringing some Malaysians for a tour for a week. He came back and rested only 3 days (of course he did his dialysis the next day).. and he flew again to Taiwan for another trip. An accident happened in Taipei the very next day upon arrival and a few Malaysians was injured and hospitalized. Being my brother, he assisted all the tourist for check-up and so on except himself. He told the rest that he's OK and there's no pain, and he can continue the tour with them. 2 days later, on the Friday night (after their night market walk), he told some of the Malaysians that he'll go for check-up the next day as he felt something not right. Sadly, it happened that very morning itself (Saturday morning @ 1am). He gave a call to the receptionist to get the ambulance for him and before he could hang up the phone, he collapsed from the bed. Ambulance came but couldn't get into his room cos' he latch the room door and it took another few minutes to get the fire brigade to reach the hotel. All in all, my brother stop breathing for almost an hour from the time he lost conscious. He was sent straight to ICU that morning. We believe that's it due to the bus accident by the cliff that cos' him to have internal bleeding. Usually internal bleeding won't occur immediately and sadly he didn't go for the body check-up after the accident.
3 of my brother's colleague came to our house to tell us the news that morning. I was shocked but also in a calm way. Don't know how to react too. All I know that time is to send out text messages to all my Church friends and colleagues to pray for my brother - calling for an urgent prayer. I'm thankful that everyone responded and prayed for my brother. And another thing that I wanna thank God for is that God make a way for my dad and sister to get their passports done within a short notice and to have the air tickets ready within that few hours. I'm also thankful for the Staffs that works at the Immigration - thank God for the patience. And one last thing is, thank God for my brother's company, although he started working for 2-3weeks (can be counted as freelance) the boss willing to pay up all the expenses e.g hotel, air tickets, hospital bills and cremation. Its really God's covering over them. ^_^ My dad and sister manage to see him for the last time in Taipei. It's really a heart breaking one when they were there witnessing every moves that the doctor did. Thank God my mom didn't go, if not, we don't really know who to take care first. Everything went smoothly over in Taipei and also back in PJ. Really thank God for all my aunts and uncles that came by to help and to support. Really appreciate all of them.
My brother is now in heaven... we scattered his ashes into the sea cos' he's still a bachelor and it would be good for him. Seeing his ashes around would make us more heartache (from my point of view la).

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In the month of August...
Myself and Ryl signed up for this Hillsong UNITE + CONQUER Conference in Ipoh on August 11 and we attended both night concert which is on August 11 & 12. We started our journey at 5am on August 11, we slept for like 2hrs and we got up to wash up at 4am. Reach Ipoh right on time, 740am to attend the Conference which starts at 9am. After the Conference, we managed to check-in the hotel and we head straight for lunch. Went back to hotel to catch some beauty sleep after our lunch - we slept for another 2hrs (in total, we only had 4hrs of sleep on the Wednesday ^_^). Our first intention was to stay for one night concert and leaving to PJ the next day afternoon. Well, I asked Ryl if she can drive back after the concert on the August 12. Her replied was Yes. So we decided to stay till the 2nd night concert. haha. Totally random decision and thank God we stayed.
Am really blessed by the 2 speakers, Pr Lee & Pr Josh and also the team from Hillsong Australia. Their enthusiasm seems to draw me closer to God. Powerful message being shared by the 2 Pastors, it's indeed their living testimonies, shared from the heart. Short and yet impactful.
Both nights concert was totally AWESOME! Phenomenal that's the word they love to use. Crowds really going crazy for God that 2 nights - jumping, shouting and dancing with all their mights. Even the worship leader did his moves. haha. Really enjoyed the whole trip with Ryl too. We went for food hunting (not knowing Ipoh) we depend on her GPS... thank God for creative talents... inventing a GPS. The last night was a night to remember... right after concert, we headed back to PJ. We drove to the nearest 7-Eleven to grab some water and instant noodles in cup. We cooked our noodles in 7-Eleven cos they provide hot waters and we ate it in the car. haha. Isn't that cool! First time experience. ^_^

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August 14, 2010 is my nephew's birthday. The night itself my niece dreamt of my brother.
She told her grandma bout it. She was sitting on the couch, and she saw my brother walking down from upstairs. He was holding a present and giving that present to my nephew.
My mom asked my niece, "Did he say anything to you?" Niece shook her head and say "No".
Well, it's exactly 2mths now since my brother has gone to be with the Lord. Really missed him so much. *sigh* Just wondering how is he doing now... I'm sure he's happily enjoying his eternal life with God without pain and sufferings. ^_^ Would be seeing him one day in heaven.

What breaks your heart?

Does the word "break-up" really makes one person wake-up and start noticing their partners and appreciate them even more or do they just break-up the relationship and carry on with their lives...?

If one person would really wanna say those words, they really should think carefully. Cos God made us (male & female) different, with different personality, different character and so on.

Breaking up isn't a good word and its not easy to say so. Why can't a relationship come clean and treat one another better? Care and take time to listen to one another problems, so that everyone know where to turn to when they're down.

Just last week, I attended a CG frm Ampang Church. Cos I stayed over at Teo's resident for a night, so I tag along to the CG that Friday night. It was an eye opener that how open these lovely folks are. By the way, the whole CG are married couples and I'm the odd one. *haha* Spot light for the night and also my sister's colleague also from that CG.
We had ice breaker, worship and then sharing time. We were doing this 7-day personal devotion, written by our in house pastors. So we were on Day 2, talking about how God showed love in times of trouble.
Everyone shared their part, and it was rather emotional cos it touches relationships, hardships, and then how God bring them together and etc. Sharing on the love of God. Tears were flowing from the ladies and it was a heart felt sharing. Pouring out their emotions.
When they asked me to share, I was reluctant and saying I have nothing to share. They still insist la... so I did. That Day 2 sharing really spoke to me when I was reading it. Of how I wish to give up my ministry and be a normal Sunday Church attendant. But God gave me this passion and strength whenever I felt like giving up hope. And how He showed me love to stay on to the ministry and now, God gave me another direction. As in to start helping in the Children church. Heart aches whenever I see children cos I really don't know how to teach them and how to get them behave. I think I posted this earlier on (last month, bout my prophecy with John & Monette Jacks), been having these prophecies which speaks about children. God is good, He gave me my nephew to start off, although I have a 9yr old niece but I never really had that patience with her when she was young. Where else now with my nephew which is much worst than my niece to face with... God really gave me patience and tolerance to face him.
So there, I shared my part with the CG in Ampang... and the funny thing is, one of the member had this kid... and guess what, he said, "If you can get around with my 2 boys, you can get around with any kids..." *haha* He was highlighting that his 2 boys are the 2 naughtiest kids around.
I do learn something attending that CG, brings hope and love and the openness with one another. So what if we argued and throwing our temper to one another... so long we know how to apologize to one another and accept back each other... that helps us grows stronger. No one is perfect in this world except our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen!

What's the problem for being a "banana"?

Got a call this afternoon from an old lady.
At first she sounded polite (speaks in broken english), and then she asked for my name. So I told her my name and then she asked me whether I know mandarin and attempted to speak mandarin to me. I told her I know cantonese only.
I softly replied her, "May I know who are you asking for?". The old lady replied, "Looking for you..". Frankly speaking, I don't know who she is and she told me she's from the Chinese Church.
The next thing I know, she scolded me on the phone and shouted. I literally move the receiver away from my ear and I stoned.
This is what she scolded (roughly)... it's all translate into english version la.. cos she was scolding in cantonese.

Crazy old lady: I'M LOOKING FOR YOU! ARE YOU THE ONE WHO TELL ME TO LOOK FOR El. P.T NUMBER IN THE DIRECTORY? WHY ARE YOU SO RUDE TO CHINESE PEOPLE. HUH! ENGLISH CHURCH PEOPLE TRYING TO BULLY CHINESE CHURCH PEOPLE AH... HOW CAN YOU BE CHINESE WHEN YOU CAN'T EVEN SPEAK YOUR OWN LANGUAGE (mandarin)? I USED TO ATTEND YOUR CHURCH FOR 8 YEARS BUT I STOP GOING FOR AWHILE AND NOW I COME BACK. IS THAT HOW YOU ENGLISH CHURCH PEOPLE TREAT YOUR MEMBERS... *I moved the receiver away and I felt like hanging up the call*

Me: I didn't speak to you just now also... I don't think I'm the person that you're looking for... (spoke in a soft manner).

Crazy old lady: I DON'T CARE.. YOU GO ASKED AROUND WHO TALK TO ME IN THAT RUDE MANNER... I WAS JUST TRYING TO ASKED FOR El. P.T'S NUMBER AND SHE GO TELL ME TO SEARCH THE DIRECTORY... IS El. P.T THERE?!?! I WANT TO SPEAK TO HIM... PASS ME TO HIM...!!

Me: OK. wait ah... *happily passed the phone* and I told El. P.T that someone is very hot over the phone. Scold people like nobody's business.

Then my colleagues who are standing around my cubicle were shocked. "Huh! What did she say?" one of my colleague asked.

Told them she scolded me la... as if like it's my fault that I don't know mandarin or being rude to her over the phone. Which I did not speak to her. I never ever speak rudely to anyone on the phone before, except those who called to kacau-kacau or keep insisting that they call the right place. Even the worst Dr. Kamala who called me so often also I never sound rudely to her... where they themselves who are the ones that's being rude and scold people.

When I was telling my colleagues, I nearly cried out. How can that crazy old lady scold innocent people like me...!?!? Suddenly felt that I'm the guinea pig. Even that Dr. Kamala who called me last week, can't remember what she said and she was angry on the phone and said something about curse and then hang up the phone. That's even rude isn't it! But after awhile she calls back and apologise for what she has said to me earlier and say that she'll pray for me and my future. Everytime she calls, she'll said the same words. I feel like scolding her over the phone. She keeps telling me that people are cursing her and bla bla bla... I wanted to tell her off... Who's so free to curse you...? People have so many problems in their life, still got time to curse you ah.. I think you need to go see a psychiatrist la... How can you attend hindu and then tell me Christian stuff.. DOESN'T LINK!!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO PISSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lord! Forgive me Lord for acting this way... help me to stay patients with these people... need your strength, guidance, peace and Your Holy Spirit when I speak with these problematic people. And Lord, I pray that You guard our mouth piece when we speak to people over the phone. Not just myself but to all the entire Staff too. Thank You Lord!